~Long Marriage~

I reach through the darkness, expecting to find someone waiting there. and grasp the hand of lonliness, when I find it empty, void and bare. Swallowed by my desolation, conquered by a lack of self worth. Constantly wondering who I am, and the purpose of my birth. I look at my tight cacoon, purposely devised to keep people away. and dare to wonder why no one knows me, or cares to hear what I have to say. I have spent so many years in a marriage that has killed my soul deep within. That I would have to say that staying, has been my biggest sin. What if so much of me has been destroyed, and this is all I have left to give. Can I ever be happy or love, or really have a chance to live? Copyright 1993 © Rain Silverhawk. All Rights Reserved